I’m not quite sure how it happened, but the anxiety I had grown up with suddenly exploded into a full social anxiety. I found myself not wanting to leave the house. This made me depressed because my social anxiety made me stay away from all the people that I love so much. Desperate for a way to keep in touch with other people, I began playing Poker QQ online because I can chat with the other players. I love poker games, and in the past, I went to them regularly.
In high school I was incredibly popular. I did have low self-esteem, but it didn’t seem to matter then. By the time when I got to college my anxiety levels built up even worse. I began to pull away from people more and more. However, I still did what I could do to push myself to remain social. I never went to a doctor about my troubles, and I guess I should have done that. My fear of people grew and grew to the point where I couldn’t even leave the house to go to work. Luckily, it is possible to work online. But when I’m working, I am working. There’s no time for socializing online with my online coworkers.
At first, I just played poker by myself on the Internet. But as I felt more confident overtime, I began reaching out to the other players in the chat room. I have even told them about my troubles. Some of them have even told me they have the same issues. This has been really great for me, and I am feeling better and better about reaching out the other people now. I am also going to contact the doctor, and get some help. I hope that I will be around people and person again. I miss getting a person smile in person.